Being A Nurse

Yesterday I did my first shift alone working as an LPN at a long term care and rehab facility. I think I can say I was excited for it because I have done clinicals and trained and followed around nurses countless times-it feels like-and to do things my way would be nice. 

Well..I guess I can say hopefully it can only go up hill from here. The nurse the shift before me decided she did not have time to do most her med pass and left it for me to do. I was only there for a small 4 hour shift-the time it takes to do the one med pass I am responsible for that night. Being optimistic and naive about it I figured I could do it-no big deal. 

Minus all the details of the crazy shift I ended up leaving almost 2 hours later than I was scheduled to be there because I was so busy! But that is part of nursing as I hear. I got home real late and the worse part of it all I would say is I could not sleep! ( Most people know that sleeping is very important to me.) My mind was racing about everything I did. What if I messed up?-because I was in such a rush to do things. What if I end of killing someone? What if I get fired because I did such a horrible job? 

This isn't the first time I have had this problems of not sleeping because of work. When I started my life guarding job in high school I wouldn't be able to sleep because my mind would fake me into thinking my dreams and thoughts were reality. I would sit up in bed looking around the room thinking I was life guarding and couldn't fall asleep. Yeah I guess you can call me crazy.

So right now in school my nursing classes are management/leadership and psych. I think I will have to learn from both of them from the stress nursing causes me!

I always question myself if nursing is the thing for me and if I will enjoy it.

I have another 4 hour shift tonight. I just hope I will be able to sleep.

Calendar!

My Calendar I made for 2011 finally came the other day! Yes it is almost the end of January but I didn't order it till the last week of December! I waited to make it because we didn't have any pictures for December! I tried to have pictures of things we did that month, but some months we slacked with taking pictures!

( I took pictures of pictures so of course the quality is not as good on here.)

January

February

March

April

May

June

July

August

September

October

November

December

Logan

This past weekend we went up to Logan. To start with the not so good news, we bought a car up in Logan in April and we have enjoyed it. A 2009 black toyota Camry! We made an appointment for some maintenance work (another reason to go up to logan besides to hang out) which actually ended up being no big deal at all. What makes me really sad is this past week some one hit the side of my car. Since my car was rather dirty with all the salt and snow I did not notice it at first and don't know when it happened. Yes that does mean it was a hit and run. BUMMER! I have a nice dent in the side on my car now and it appears that my door might not shut all the way. I wish that everyone could be honest in this world and at least left a note. :( Now more money down the drain when we get to fixing it. My mama always said their are for sure two things in life that you will always have to pay for that are a pain-car problems and taxes.

Anyways on with our good weekend in logan. On Friday night we hung out with Courtney and Christopher and Max (sister, brother-in-law, nephew) we went out to dinner at Bluebird Cafe-I wanted to go somewhere that is only in Logan-and it was delicious. The rolls superb as well as the other food! Then we went back to their place and played the game LIFE. It was quite a good game with my salary being at $100,000 and Jesse painting family portraits for $35,000!

Saturday we drove up to Idaho to watch Candace race. She ran the mile and did well. I always enjoy watching her race-I haven't really been able to much when she has been in college..but it also kills me because I get butterflies for her! That night we were able to hang out with friends (Jordan and Kylie) dinner and catching up. One day Jesse and Jordan will start a business together while Kylie and I will work as nurses..we have quite a bit in common. We had a good time!

As of Lately..and A very special day!

School has started but it hasn't hit me yet..I have to admit I haven't done much for it because I have been waiting for my books to slowly come..and nursing school seems like it mostly consist of reading the books and studying-could be the reason why I have been struggling to enjoy it since I really don't like reading! I tell myself someday I will enjoy reading when I don't have to read text books. I feel that school will get busy real fast here and the stress will come on..probably starting this next week.

As far as work I quit my home health and hospice care CNA job..I have to say it was kinda hard to just tell them I quit because I don't think I have ever quit a job. Usually my jobs have been seasonal or I moved away. But within 30 minutes of quitting I got a called from a nursing home in north ogden and asked me if I wanted to work PRN (as needed) as an LPN! Also I will be starting a new CNA job with a home health company but I basically choose my own hours. So I hoping this will all work out and be for the best.

This past week we had a very special event happen in our family. Eria, Brooke, Kimberly, and Eijah were sealed in the Salt Lake Temple on January 10, 2011. This was a special day for them because that was the birthday of there first born Kimberly Mae who passed away only 13 days after being born. It was a very neat experience. We are all very happy for them!

Kimberly Mae Tokanang

The experience of having a family member pass away was very difficult but we are very fortunate to have the gospel in our lives and know Heavenly Fathers plan and find comfort.

Sealed together as the Tokanang family Jan. 10, 2011.

Baby Eli!

New Year!

New years weekend I thought wasn't going to be too great since I had to work all weekend and we didn't have anything planned to celebrate/party- but it actually turned out quite well. We were able to hang out with my family and play games and eat all night!

They all look so great..

My Moms way of saying "cheese"

Playing rockband which Jesse is the only one you can really play.

New Years Day I had to work 7:30am-7:30pm..sittin with a lady who lives at an assisted living home. I was not looking forward to that. Jesse decided to come visit me at work. He brought us lunch, we played card games and played games on our i pods (the family feud game I downloaded (: ), and watched planet earth..and possibly took a small nap. He was with me for about 5 hours..it was great! Can't complain too much after that.

So now that the holidays are over its time to get down to business and actually start trying to be healthy again. We sure do love the sweets! But we do think it is important to be healthy. I am only saying this because it puts more pressure on me now that people know...maybe?..

We are excited for this new year and hope it brings us the best! 

I will be graduating the nursing program this spring and Jesse starting the MBA program in the fall.

We will celebrate our first year anniversary! :)

and hopefully much more great things to come!