Caden's blessing weekend.

Talk about filling your weekend with being busy. Friday night we had our ward BBQ and swimming-seriously my kids just love swimming...and food...but possibly swimming more. We went to bed a little later because of that but thankfully we didn't have to be at the airport too early. I have been wanting to get back into exercising but with our busy summer schedule and Caden sleeping next to me it makes it a little tricky to actually start back into running since he's usually up or needing me around that 6:00 AM time that I used to go running but Saturday morning I told myself I would since Roxana and Courtney really wanted to as well. Seems like Jesse tends to be busy with work stuff with the times I want to start back up but its ok Caden is only 3 1/2 months old and I have ran like twice-I have been trying to do workouts just at home but my eating needs to improve. (As much as I don't like to start thinking about how overwhelming it is to start knowing how to eat correctly..) 

Anyways I slept pretty awful since I was so worried about making sure I fed Caden before I left so I wouldn't leave him with Jesse being fussy or at least do what I could to help that since he had to get ready for work. I woke up early and went running and it was hard but felt good to be able to go. Once I got home things didn't quite go as planned as far as thinking it was going to be a quick easy packing to go to Utah for one day. So when Jesse got home to leave to the airport I was a little behind with being ready but he was ok with leaving a bit later than what he's usually comfortable with.  I tend to give him a hard time with being at the airport early). We get there about an hour before our flight is leaving which isn't bad but when we realized long term parking is closed and we have to go to economy parking we started to worry about time. We circling around the airport finding ourselves not in the right spot and than really starting to worry about time so Jesse dropped the kids and I off at short term parking and he went to go park the car and meet us. I wasn't too worried cause I knew security isn't usually too bad with kids cause you get to go in a different line. So we get through security and I call Jesse to ask what gate we are suppose to go to and I figured out I went through the wrong security area (it was for ABC gate and we were suppose to be at D) so at this point I did start to worry about making it on time cause I thought we would need to go to security again but thankfully we didn't. The kids thought the airport was cool with all the moving walking lanes, elevators, and then tram at the end so they were doing pretty good for me. We got to the gate and might have been one of the last ones on the plane but not late enough that they would have left us. ha! Kids thought flying was pretty cool so it went smoothly overall. When we got off the plane Corbin said surprisingly and happily "Its still morning?" He's so used to driving all day to Utah so he was a bit shocked that we made it there so quickly. Must say it is nice not to have to drive all day but don't get me started on how I was a little upset about having to pay for us to fly..it definitely adds up paying for 5 tickets.

We got to my moms to try on Caden's blessing outfit. She was really nervous about it fitting and being ok. She even fasted about making his blessing outfit the week before because we was worried about how it would all work out especially because she used to have someone live by her house to help her sew if needed. She is really happy about how she never had to use her seam ripper which is the first time she had never had to. It's a lot of work for my mom to make them since she only sews like every time she needs to make a blessing outfit and thats it but I am grateful that she can make these outfit for my kids extra special. Caden's turned out great!

My sister Candace was kind enough to watch my kids so we could go out to dinner with the Jensen's for Scotts birthday. I took Caden with us of course and he starting getting a little congested. When we landed on the plane he was coughing like something was bothering his throat but didn't seem sick or anything so then when he started getting boogery I worried a little bit more. When we picked the kids back up I was pretty tired and ready to go to bed and knowing we had 9:00 church for the blessings I was definitely ready to sleep. Caden woke up at 11:30 screaming and that was not normal for him. I tried to calm him down but he wouldn't and his ears seem to be hurting him possibly. So I put some oils on him and thankfully he was able to calm down a bit. I went back upstairs and tried to lay back down with him but within like 20 minutes or so he was pretty upset again but this time I noticed he was warm and had a fever. First time in his life being sick dang it. I was up most the night with him trying to make him comfortable enough to sleep and then I was finally able to lay down with him and get a couple hours of sleep...but I do not do well on little sleep.

I had to wake him up to get him dressed to go to church-I worried about taking him but he seemed pretty content and ok thankfully. But I can't tell you how much I do not like waking a sleeping baby and making it a sick sleeping baby is that much worse. :( He had been awake a while and was ready to go back to sleep right before it was time to bless him so I worried how he was going to do but thankfully he didn't fuss one little bit and Jesse was able to give him a sweet little blessing. Megan and Dallin blessed their baby girl Goldie as well right before Caden and then uncle Matt was able to give his homecoming talk. A family packed day full of great stuff. As much as I didn't really want to spend the money and fly everyone up just to Utah for just a day I am glad we could all be there for all of that! Caden was actually pretty pleasant for the rest of the day and was able to sleep well. I had a pounding headache and felt pretty awful by the afternoon but couldn't sleep well but thankfully got a small nap in. Our plane left at 8:40 that night so I was a bit worried about how all the kids would do-especially Caden since thats the time he wants to be put to sleep at night! But once again thankfully they did better than I thought! We got home late and sadly Caden was up again a good portion of the night not feeling well again! :( This is when life gets a little harder for me. Testing my patience and tolerance with my others kids. They are all pretty exhausted and tired....and grumpy. But we don't have anything for the next couple months at least not planned right now so hopefully we can start getting in a good routine with school, eating, exercising, sleeping..etc. First week was a little rough with school so I am hoping we will get in a good groove and my emotions can stay stable because as of right now I feel like I still have a pretty good attitude but I know it can be a rollercoaster especially lacking sleep...and not feeling well so lets hope we all stay healthy and Caden gets better quickly. 

School Starting

Well I knew it was coming..the chaos of mornings of trying to get Corbin off to school. I really do enjoy summer-yes my kids fight and sometimes they can be long days but overall I enjoy the freedom and being able to be spontaneous and do whatever we want kinda whenever we want. I don't enjoy being forced to a schedule. I like the freedom to be lazy when you want to be but be busy doing fun things all day as well. Kinda off to a rough start but isn't change always hard at the beginning? But honestly its more because of Caden and throwing off his schedule. He had a rough day yesterday because he was so thrown off with lack of sleep from being woken up. I hate waking a child up from a nap-especially when I know they would sleep a lot longer and need it. I knew at 3 months it would be getting harder cause they aren't so much in the newborn phase where they can sleep wherever/whenever. Sleep begets sleep they say..and he was not getting enough which then he slept awful at night and was up for the day at 5am. So then I become bitter towards school because it totally throws everything off. I am hoping Corbin won't come home as exhausted and grumpy as he did last year since he's a little older and now his second year of being at school all day. I have debated back and forth if he should ride the bus to school and if that would be easier for all of us..he doesn't really want to ride it but maybe once he does he won't mind it-I still would have to walk him to the bus stop so I feel like by the time I walk him to the bus stop and back its like a 20-even maybe 30 minute ordeal...but it could be better then packing all the kids in the car and getting them all out and the stroller and walking him into the school grounds..

 Corbin seemed pretty excited about school but then again he doesn't love school. Being the second day of school and he was already saying he didn't want to go..because he got in trouble this morning though. And now I just got a phone call that he has a stomach ache and wants to come home but he didn't seem like he was in too much pain and I really don't want to wake Mikaela and Caden up from their naps cause I just laid them down 20 minutes prior to him calling. Hopefully I am not rude by telling him to go back to class and see if he can last till the end of the day. I had to question him if he had a bad day though and just wanted to come home because I could see that being a possibility too since he's pretty sensitive but he said nothing happened. He now has glasses that he just got last week and he was definitely worried about how other people would react to them. He doesn't like wearing them all the time and I worry its going to be a hard transition and a fight. I am just praying no one makes fun of him to make it that much harder on him. Everyone so far says they love them and he looks so handsome so I hope he can get more confident and not worry so much about what others think. He brought home a paper his first day that they had to write down what there first day jitters were (something they were nervous about) and he wrote "people making fun of my glasses"-it kinda broke my heart because I know kids can be rude but thankfully he said no one said anything about them. I think its a blessing that he was able to get them right before the new year and start out with them!

Anyways I am kinda back to that "I'm a bit overwhelmed" stage of the transitioning right now to 4 kids I guess-its always a rollercoaster though right? But it doesn't help that I had to take Gavin to the urologist this morning to try to find some answers to why he has those "episodes" of peeing frequently and having accidents all the time for those few days and then he's back to normal. (ya know happening for over a year now..but I really do think they are less frequent) Didn't get any answers today just a list of things I need to do--like foods to avoid and eat more of, log every time he poops and what it looks like and making him try to go after each meal, and set a timer for every 90 minutes to have him pee. And I'm like seriously? I have four kids I don't pay attention to every drink he has and every time he goes the bathroom...hes pretty independent and I don't keep and eye on that stuff all day long. These last few weeks I have been hounding him (Both him and Corbin) to flush the toilet after they go...now I have to tell him not to again when he finally was getting into a better habit of flushing it after he went...seriously talk about confusing the kid. They believe he could possibly be constipated but I was initially shocked when they said that cause he poops at least twice a day if not more usually. But he still could have "hard" poop being stuck in there they say...well enough "potty" talk...hopefully we get some answers...and ones we want to hear. I did say I would much rather take other potty issues over having him have diabetes so with his blood sugars coming back normal I'm hoping thats not a possibility. It does still make me question about foods we are eating and what needs to be changed there then..seriously every time I try to stop worrying about what we are eating I then have to again-it gets exhausting not knowing what we should and shouldn't eat. So do I cut out all dairy for all of us? wheat/gluten? is citrus foods irritating? I was already wanting to cut back more on meat. I try for us to be healthy eaters and stay away from sugar and all the crap food but theres so much more to "health" then just staying away from all that junk food even though I wish it could be simple...or maybe it is and I overthink it? But with Gavin having issues and Mikaela having all of her possibly food allergy issues with eczema and throwing up how can I not think about what we should and shouldn't be eating?..I really do wish I didn't have to feel overwhelmed about it. Hopefully it will get to that or maybe its a blessing in disguise so we can have lifelong health when others don't worry and think about it as much as I do and maybe they will pay for it later. Sure hope the stress of keeping them healthy eaters pays off and makes a difference.