Sunday, September 28, 2014

"Mommy Funk"

Having two children has been great and I am loving it! But it also brings motherhood to a new level which requires less and less alone time and "me time". Last week I was really struggling and was having a "Mom Funk" is what I called it. The funny thing is I knew the "funk" was coming because the week before I was having such a high with being a mom-everything was going so well and I just felt like I was loving every minute and my heart was just bursting throughout the day. And like we have heard and know-we go through this roller coaster in life of emotions and trails/hard times so since I was on a high I knew it couldn't last forever! 
Sadly my mom funk wasn't because my kids were being extra hard or naughty, the only reason I could think is that I was just feeling exhausted. My allergies seem to really been bothering me lately (or something else is wrong/off) and I haven't been sleeping as good as normal so I think I was just tired. I was tired of my responsibilities and not just being a mom but that of course is the biggest one for me right now. I was tired of doing the same things every day and not really seeing much from it-like the tedious tasks of making food and cleaning the kitchen up multiple times a day. I am glad I was able to notice I was in a funk and I really tried hard not to let it get to me too much and let me be a "bad mom". My mom reminded me that I need to have some "me time" everyday and to balance out all my responsibilities-and like I said with two kids is gets harder to have and you get less time for yourself. My biggest thing that helped was to just try to stay positive and enjoy my children because everyday they make me smile and not focus on my "to do" list as much. As we moms know we can't completely ignore our "to do" list because it just gets bigger and more overwhelming each day if so but once again finding a good balance and maybe just doing the minimum for that day or two. Finding the right balance I think is going to be a lifelong struggle but at least I know that and it won't be a surprise! ha!
Another thing for me is as much as it is sometimes harder to get out of the house and do things it is better for all of us if we do. If I stay home day after day doing nothing but my "responsibilities" that is when I notice I start to feel the "funk". Thankfully I was talking to my sister and we brought up maybe going to her house in California and go to the beach while Jesse went out of town for work. It wasn't necessarily the easiest thing to do but it was forcing me to get out of my house (away from the everyday things I have to do here) and have a little fun! So that is just what I did-it was a quick little trip but fun to get out and chat with her and go to the beach, eat yummy tacos, and enjoy some gelato! :) While my responsibilities of being a mother did not go away nor get any easier there I do think just changing things up a bit did help a little! But I didn't have to clean my house and cook dinner!

Friday, September 19, 2014

Gavin is 3 months.

Gavin is 3 months now! Wow crazy!-like I said we have been on the go this summer so time is going by fast I feel like. Plus I keep telling everyone I feel like I kinda got ripped off with having a newborn. He was a newborn for like a 2 weeks and then became a baby and like most people know he is a chunky one!  But I can't complain newborns don't sleep nearly as long at night so I appreciate him being able to sleep pretty well for me. I feed him once during the night and thats so doable without being exhausted! I guess that precious newborn "new" baby look is what I feel like I didn't have much of! and that fact that my sister had her baby this last bit and I am dying to see little Vince isn't helping haha but he's a cute chunky one now I think. But seriously in some pictures he can look so big and goofy! haha His neck is definitely disappearing even more….
Gavin is still pleasant for the most part. I love how he is smiling a ton and has giggled a few times but most of the time its a silent giggle. He does give us the blank stare or scowl still a lot. He does have his rough times but most babies do! He reflux is still crazy and now has caused him to get a little congested from all the spit up. His nose constantly has "snot" because of the spit up coming up-it makes me feel so bad for him and now he sounds like he has an awful cough as well but its just from the congestion. I also finally got rid of his cradle cap-it was getting kinda bad. But I was able to find some oils to clear it right up but some days you can tell it wants to make a come back.
He loves his face covered when he sleeps and will purposely take the blanket and cover it sometimes. When I am rocking him he turns his head almost upside down so that his face is completely barried in my arm. He loves to suck and is now shoving his fist or fingers into his mouth constantly when he is awake and doesn't have a binky in. He likes his binky but doesn't have to have it to sleep but it definitely helps him to.
I bought a new swing a while back and it has been the best thing ever for him. Jesse's brother gave us one but it didn't really actually swing so someone was selling one for cheap and it was the one that can swing either way-so much better swinging side to side inside of front to back. He sleeps so well in it and I can get things done and not have to constantly carry him! I hope it continues…
I love how he lights up when I come and talk to him and is interacting more. He jabbers back a ton and of course I think its the cutest sounds. I love at night when Jesse is putting Corbin down (cause Corbin is always needed my attention) I can just sit and have my time with him and he just "talks" and smiles at me! 
he looks really thrilled to be wrapped up-but he slept so much better with it. Sadly he is too big for it now and always unwraps himself from the swaddle blanket.
this is how is has to be held while being rocked.
seeing how far his fist can get in..
And this is what happens when I try to take pictures of him….lovely spit up..
or his hand is his mouth...

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Bear Lake Weekend

Jesse's family planned a family vacation up to the cabin at Bear Lake-all the siblings were able to be there so the whole family was able to be together! (which of course is getting harder as we are in different states and the kids are getting older) We had planned to hang out at the beach and go jet skiing but the weather was a bit chilly so we didn't end up even going down to the beach sadly. (so we went swimming at the pool when we got back to the Jensen's house!) But the kids were very happy playing outside since the weather was very pleasant for that! Corbin found a grass hopper one day and thought it was really cool until it jumped on him! He's always intrigued with bugs till they get a little too close! ha! Corbin was obsessed with the side by sides and just wanted to being riding the "jeeps" all day long or at least just be sitting on them. It was a very relaxing and lazy weekend eating junk food and shakes--which isn't so relaxing on the stomach….
It was so nice just to get to spend time with Jesse and the whole family!
We flew out to Utah on Jesse birthday and got there late but still had cake and ice cream for Brooke and Jesse's birthday. On the way back we took a late flight too and we got lucky and the plane wasn't even half full so Corbin was able to just lay down on two seats and sleep and I was able to take Gavin in his car seat! love when that happens! :)