Well...I have come to a conclusion..not one I am necessarily wanting to admit (cause who likes to admit their weaknesses?) but it is what it is.
I get easily overwhelmed.
I really don't know why or what causes it but I am hoping from admitting it maybe I can be able to work on it?... I know the simple answers to help..."take one thing at a time" "don't try to do everything at once" "you don't have to be a superstar in every area of your life" "baby steps" etc etc. Those things do help...but not quite fixing my problem. I have been like this for some time I am afraid (not just these past months-but definitely has gotten worse I feel like) I don't know why the little things I need to do turn into being overwhelming and then sometimes I dread them. Or I have come to a conclusion that I am sick of doing dishes and laundry every day? Its just not my thing....Ya know its just easier to sit around and be lazy I guess. ugh I sounds horrible. I need to get out of this rut. Sometimes I say that I am too hard on myself and then other days I say I need to be harder and push myself. I guess I need to find a happy medium. ok vent is over-maybe I should start on this laundry...ok maybe just one basket for now. ;)